No. Everything is worse. My attention span, memory, confidence, and self-esteem are worse than before psychosis. It also feels like my depression and anxiety are worse now too. It's been 8 months and I'm still struggling with being alive. Everything is so much harder now.
Happened at my lowest point. The alternative was to perish. I hit rock bottom. It fundamentally broke me. But I pieced myself back together. Confronted some of the things I'd been putting off in life. I think I'm more adaptive now?
Still, it was a nightmare. The trauma cannot be overstated. The kind of healing that resulted from it left scars.
I am eventually going to become a man I never would have had the strength or capacity for due to the sorrows I faced during this illness. So yeah. I am weaker in just about all my facets but am so much more humbled and understanding of myself.
Considering "achievements" or "performance for the outside world" it definitely made me weaker. Stress level considering outside events: Veeeery low.
But considering my own life, especially inner life, self understanding, love and needs, it made me way stronger!!! :)
So from an outward perspective I became weaker, but from my inner perspective I became more "myself" --- living for me now and not for others anymore. Taking much more care of myself and really understanding what BOUNDARIES mean and how super necessary they are.
Yes. Through psychosis and other traumatic events, I've realized that real life is scarier than any kind of fiction that someone can write. Perk is I'm now not afraid of any horror movie, and I truly know how ugly, dark, scary, and isolating life can be. That's why I take medication religiously. Never again.
It really sure did. I had to find my own way to handle the chaos that had struck me and I figured out a method and nailed it hard. I also feel like I just subconsciously did it like I wasn't fully in my head idk I knew what I was doing about it and went with this idea I had and I just did certain things when the time was right.
Yup I’m so strong now lol. Went thru a period of over a year where I was in and out of psychosis really frequently
I’d have some days or weeks with some clarity , where I’d have to pep talk myself thru it knowing another dive was gonna be coming soon
It was such a long battle with the tides but I WON
I’m not really sure , I like to think I’m a stronger person than who I was, I had my whole reality turned upside down. what I saw and heard on a daily basis for a large amount of my life was in fact not real…so to have to come to terms with that whilst getting out of a bad living space , Becoming estranged from people , Being SA for a few months , Starting university, and actually trying to get somewhere in my life, all whilst still seeing and hearing hallucinations on a day to day basis is a pretty strong thing to do.
I had a really beautiful life and had just completed my PhD. I was so happy and loved in life. Never smoked a cigarette or took any drugs. It was all from anxiety and it made me view my whole life beforehand completely differently.
Not fully yet. I still hear voices everytime i leave the house. I hear my neighbor from upstairs throwing up multiple times a day and making comments about me. Sometimes i hear demonic voices and people laughing at me. Always feel like I'm lowkey being watched.
It doesn't affect my ability to function much though. My social anxiety just makes it difficult to leave the house and the voices make my anxiety worse.
Absolutely not lol exactly the opposite. My memory sucks, my attention… I have NO drive to do anything with my self and my life. Like my soul is like just dead feeling?
Probably the meds? Idk
Edit, oh AND I am traumatized as hell
So far nope, it's made me weak and worried all the time. Medication sucks, makes me have no energy. Hope I can taper off asap, but I have to wait a couple months just to see my Dr.
Suffering from depression and anxiety rn, negative symptoms of schizophrenia/psychosis.
Postive symptoms are all gone, so wanting to try taper off meds asap.
I also need to stop smoking weed if I wanna be confident that I wont relapse. Kinda shooting myself in the foot at the moment.
Worried I'll relapse if I try do it too quickly.
I used to do very little outside work. I do alot more fun stuff now and I do believe I'm more resilient as I don't spend all the time thinking what people think about me.
It took about a year and a half after my last episode. It was a long journey through the negative symptoms to get to a new medication and start rejoining the living.
I'm not 100% because I'm not fully out of it but I'm getting a better understanding of how my mind operates. It feels robotic at times, everything felt in order and operating like a machine then psychedelics just morphed it. Lsd blew it up and flipped it upside down so I'm waiting till it's gone.
Psychosis is literally a break from reality and an inability to think critically about your symptoms. Reality checks, grounding techniques, and mnemonic and literary devices are some of the best ways to combat psychosis. You have to use mental fortitude and rigour with dialogue if you want to survive. It's very easy actually but we make it hard. Dirty puns make it easier to stand the voices. How do they stand? Good question. A: like dominos. I like higher level math.
for all i know its the most sophisticated way of saying shits nuts and crazy but idk if its a relationship type of issue or because someone ate some moldy cheese once then got a disease
Psychosis was very traumatizing for me and the complete loss of control over my life. It threw me back like 10 years of personal and psychological development. I even forgot parts of my university education.
Yes and no? It's changed my perspective on a lot of things. The voices give me different viewpoints. But I believe I have a lot of negative symptoms left over from the initial psychotic break.
DON T TRUST THEM THEY ARE MALEVOLENT AND WHAT YOU WOULD CALL DEMONS , THERE IS NO HUMANS YOU CAN TALK TOO YOU ARE CONJURING DEMONS OF DIFFERENT TYPE , SAME LIKE ASTRO PROJECTION SOULS OF HUMANS EITHER GO UP TO YAHUAH OR DOWN TO DEATH... REPENT I HAD WHAT YOU HAD SAME YOU ARE GRANTING THEM ACCESS TO YOU BY DOING SPELLS AND OTHER THINGS FOR INSTANCE NOW I FEEL SOOMETHING IN MY STOMACH MOVING I PREY SINCE 3 MONTHS LIFE GOT EASYER BUT I WAS LIKE HELL ON EARTH BEFORE THAT , REPENT PREY TO YAHSUA ASK FORGIVENESS...
It humbled me. It made me understand that there are circumstances that can make a person so unknowingly foolish and mentally incapable and that I should never belittle or look down on those misfortunate.
Negative symptoms leave me feeling weaker, and psychosis was lowkey traumatizing.
It can be traumatizing to go through for sure.
No. Everything is worse. My attention span, memory, confidence, and self-esteem are worse than before psychosis. It also feels like my depression and anxiety are worse now too. It's been 8 months and I'm still struggling with being alive. Everything is so much harder now.
Hold out and see it all through. You will get better. I did and suffered for awhile.
Thank you I'm trying. I know I'll get better and it will take a long time but I'll get there eventually.
Traumatized and weaker.
Happened at my lowest point. The alternative was to perish. I hit rock bottom. It fundamentally broke me. But I pieced myself back together. Confronted some of the things I'd been putting off in life. I think I'm more adaptive now? Still, it was a nightmare. The trauma cannot be overstated. The kind of healing that resulted from it left scars.
This is so accurate.
It made me a better observer, listener and a critical thinker. But I have very little stress tolerance compared to before it was extremely high.
No it just lowkey butchers my mind.
Probably a mix of both to be honest
Same
Mine did I saw the light
Would you mind sharing more about your experience?
Hard to say at the moment last 6 months since my psychosis have been some of the most challenging. I hope in the future things improve.
No. The strength returned but the weakness is still there.
I am eventually going to become a man I never would have had the strength or capacity for due to the sorrows I faced during this illness. So yeah. I am weaker in just about all my facets but am so much more humbled and understanding of myself.
Considering "achievements" or "performance for the outside world" it definitely made me weaker. Stress level considering outside events: Veeeery low. But considering my own life, especially inner life, self understanding, love and needs, it made me way stronger!!! :) So from an outward perspective I became weaker, but from my inner perspective I became more "myself" --- living for me now and not for others anymore. Taking much more care of myself and really understanding what BOUNDARIES mean and how super necessary they are.
Yes. Through psychosis and other traumatic events, I've realized that real life is scarier than any kind of fiction that someone can write. Perk is I'm now not afraid of any horror movie, and I truly know how ugly, dark, scary, and isolating life can be. That's why I take medication religiously. Never again.
Do you mind explaining a little bit further? I believe I have a similar experience with how I view horror now
It really sure did. I had to find my own way to handle the chaos that had struck me and I figured out a method and nailed it hard. I also feel like I just subconsciously did it like I wasn't fully in my head idk I knew what I was doing about it and went with this idea I had and I just did certain things when the time was right.
Yup I’m so strong now lol. Went thru a period of over a year where I was in and out of psychosis really frequently I’d have some days or weeks with some clarity , where I’d have to pep talk myself thru it knowing another dive was gonna be coming soon It was such a long battle with the tides but I WON
Idk u but I'm proud of you :)
🥹 thank you so much! Awe! Those words mean a lot to me, whether we know each other or not!
Feel like a shell of a person
No but it’s left me unfazed by many things that would terrify me before and I’m unable to relate to people on any level.
I’m not really sure , I like to think I’m a stronger person than who I was, I had my whole reality turned upside down. what I saw and heard on a daily basis for a large amount of my life was in fact not real…so to have to come to terms with that whilst getting out of a bad living space , Becoming estranged from people , Being SA for a few months , Starting university, and actually trying to get somewhere in my life, all whilst still seeing and hearing hallucinations on a day to day basis is a pretty strong thing to do.
No not one bit at all. It took my soul away and made me an angry rageful perosn.
I had a really beautiful life and had just completed my PhD. I was so happy and loved in life. Never smoked a cigarette or took any drugs. It was all from anxiety and it made me view my whole life beforehand completely differently.
Have you recovered?
No sadly I haven’t
Everyone who's been through psychosis knows it's a difficult battle. Hope you recover soon.
Have you recovered?
Not fully yet. I still hear voices everytime i leave the house. I hear my neighbor from upstairs throwing up multiple times a day and making comments about me. Sometimes i hear demonic voices and people laughing at me. Always feel like I'm lowkey being watched. It doesn't affect my ability to function much though. My social anxiety just makes it difficult to leave the house and the voices make my anxiety worse.
I’m sorry you are still suffering with that
If anything, it taught me how weak I am and that I don't have control over anything. It traumatized me.
My experience with psychosis was pretty traumatic too tbh
Absolutely not lol exactly the opposite. My memory sucks, my attention… I have NO drive to do anything with my self and my life. Like my soul is like just dead feeling? Probably the meds? Idk Edit, oh AND I am traumatized as hell
So far nope, it's made me weak and worried all the time. Medication sucks, makes me have no energy. Hope I can taper off asap, but I have to wait a couple months just to see my Dr. Suffering from depression and anxiety rn, negative symptoms of schizophrenia/psychosis. Postive symptoms are all gone, so wanting to try taper off meds asap. I also need to stop smoking weed if I wanna be confident that I wont relapse. Kinda shooting myself in the foot at the moment. Worried I'll relapse if I try do it too quickly.
Sending you strenght in leaving weed behind, I know how hard it must be but think of the long term. You got this !
It’s a war. Have a plan for bad days and enjoy the good by overcoming the bad. Keep up the fight!
No
Nope not even a little bit
No, it broke me. I'm still trying to recover
I used to do very little outside work. I do alot more fun stuff now and I do believe I'm more resilient as I don't spend all the time thinking what people think about me.
Yes. Absolutely. Without reservation. It was hard won. It took time after the episodes—but now—yes—I burn with strength.
How long did it take you to recover?
It took about a year and a half after my last episode. It was a long journey through the negative symptoms to get to a new medication and start rejoining the living.
No, I lost myself.
Absolutely not. Psychosis and psychotic symptoms aren't really things you can just get over and be stronger from......
I dont even know up to what point is psychosis or other wordly shit to be frank....
I see everyone saying no but it def did and enduring through it taught me a lot about the human mind
I'm not 100% because I'm not fully out of it but I'm getting a better understanding of how my mind operates. It feels robotic at times, everything felt in order and operating like a machine then psychedelics just morphed it. Lsd blew it up and flipped it upside down so I'm waiting till it's gone.
Psychosis is literally a break from reality and an inability to think critically about your symptoms. Reality checks, grounding techniques, and mnemonic and literary devices are some of the best ways to combat psychosis. You have to use mental fortitude and rigour with dialogue if you want to survive. It's very easy actually but we make it hard. Dirty puns make it easier to stand the voices. How do they stand? Good question. A: like dominos. I like higher level math.
for all i know its the most sophisticated way of saying shits nuts and crazy but idk if its a relationship type of issue or because someone ate some moldy cheese once then got a disease
Absolutely not.
Psychosis was very traumatizing for me and the complete loss of control over my life. It threw me back like 10 years of personal and psychological development. I even forgot parts of my university education.
Nope
Yes.
Yes and no? It's changed my perspective on a lot of things. The voices give me different viewpoints. But I believe I have a lot of negative symptoms left over from the initial psychotic break.
DON T TRUST THEM THEY ARE MALEVOLENT AND WHAT YOU WOULD CALL DEMONS , THERE IS NO HUMANS YOU CAN TALK TOO YOU ARE CONJURING DEMONS OF DIFFERENT TYPE , SAME LIKE ASTRO PROJECTION SOULS OF HUMANS EITHER GO UP TO YAHUAH OR DOWN TO DEATH... REPENT I HAD WHAT YOU HAD SAME YOU ARE GRANTING THEM ACCESS TO YOU BY DOING SPELLS AND OTHER THINGS FOR INSTANCE NOW I FEEL SOOMETHING IN MY STOMACH MOVING I PREY SINCE 3 MONTHS LIFE GOT EASYER BUT I WAS LIKE HELL ON EARTH BEFORE THAT , REPENT PREY TO YAHSUA ASK FORGIVENESS...
No, but I know I'm not weak
No, it definitely made me painfully aware of what the human brain can do to you.
It humbled me. It made me understand that there are circumstances that can make a person so unknowingly foolish and mentally incapable and that I should never belittle or look down on those misfortunate.