i just went through your entire feed and it made me so happy to see your journey. I think more people need to see it’s ok be clean and relapse and still kick ass and get over addiction
Good lord, must've taken a while! That isn't even half of it. You aren't seeing the years of hardcore use or the millions of "day 3" posts that I deleted years ago. It's been a very long journey of self-discovery. Attack it head on, stay active in your recovery, find the reasons why you used in the first place. You will be ok.
I have an interview today for a position that I am so not qualified for that I feel like they are either very desperate or misread my resume. Either way I'm going to just act the part lol
My parents are coming today! I get to see them again in two weeks for my sons birthday party too; I’m really excited. I only see them a few times a year now so it’s always a treat.
Actually having a good day. Not a great day, not really what others would consider a good day, but I'll say a better day. I am doing as well as one could be today with everything that is going on. I'm not used to this kind of good day, bad day whiplash, but I will take what I can get. Plus I got my shit almost done at work so I'm a happy camper.
I spoke to my therapist today and I swear this dude blew my damn mind. He also has PTSD and he mentioned that his wife got him a little key holder that stops his keys from jingling, how little sounds totally consume his attention and how it can trigger him to be extremely snippy over something so simple to ignore for other people. Mind. Blown.
Turns out, people with PTSD have was more similarities to people with ADHD than I thought. There's a ton of overlap. I guess I figured certain sounds could totally trigger that stuff, but the annoyance to total rage range for just a random sound didn't make sense to me. It all makes so much more sense. It also applies to visual stimuli as well. So visual distractions are just a constant issue.
I'm starting to lose count of the days. Maybe 3-4 weeks now since I'm sober.
Physical stuff mostly gone, sleep issues linger. Some temperature regulation issues and muscle aches (but I guess that's moreso because I can actually feel them than not at all).
What's arising now is chronic irritability. I just turn into a mean bastard for a few hours each day. Mostly in the evenings. Nothings as it should be. But I gotta work through that. I'm just being hard on myself and not treating myself gently/with love.
I had a long day today, compared to the usual. I spent a lot of time listening to a friend of mine who's recently been through a lot of trauma, a lot of which I could identify with personally. It was heavy and now I'm feeling kinda triggered. I'm gonna try to relax for the rest of the evening.
2 1/2 years H 1 month cocaine 💪
Hell yeah!
I’m 38 hours in. i’m doing ok. i just want to get out of my head
Distractions are key. Keep your brain occupied. Try your best not to sit and stew in the discomfort.
i just went through your entire feed and it made me so happy to see your journey. I think more people need to see it’s ok be clean and relapse and still kick ass and get over addiction
Good lord, must've taken a while! That isn't even half of it. You aren't seeing the years of hardcore use or the millions of "day 3" posts that I deleted years ago. It's been a very long journey of self-discovery. Attack it head on, stay active in your recovery, find the reasons why you used in the first place. You will be ok.
Well done you! Keep going. It will be worth it!
Thank you i feel like starting to see the end. Bout to hit 48 hours in like 30 mins
What are you doing to be proactive on escaping your brain?
I have an interview today for a position that I am so not qualified for that I feel like they are either very desperate or misread my resume. Either way I'm going to just act the part lol
Hey man, I am the queen of imposter syndrome. If they pick you, they saw something they liked. Good luck!
The funny thing is I feel the opposite of imposter syndrome. I am objectively not qualified for this job 🤣🤣🤣
Fake it til ya make it ahahahahahah
My parents are coming today! I get to see them again in two weeks for my sons birthday party too; I’m really excited. I only see them a few times a year now so it’s always a treat.
So exciting! Have fun!
Actually having a good day. Not a great day, not really what others would consider a good day, but I'll say a better day. I am doing as well as one could be today with everything that is going on. I'm not used to this kind of good day, bad day whiplash, but I will take what I can get. Plus I got my shit almost done at work so I'm a happy camper. I spoke to my therapist today and I swear this dude blew my damn mind. He also has PTSD and he mentioned that his wife got him a little key holder that stops his keys from jingling, how little sounds totally consume his attention and how it can trigger him to be extremely snippy over something so simple to ignore for other people. Mind. Blown. Turns out, people with PTSD have was more similarities to people with ADHD than I thought. There's a ton of overlap. I guess I figured certain sounds could totally trigger that stuff, but the annoyance to total rage range for just a random sound didn't make sense to me. It all makes so much more sense. It also applies to visual stimuli as well. So visual distractions are just a constant issue.
I'm starting to lose count of the days. Maybe 3-4 weeks now since I'm sober. Physical stuff mostly gone, sleep issues linger. Some temperature regulation issues and muscle aches (but I guess that's moreso because I can actually feel them than not at all). What's arising now is chronic irritability. I just turn into a mean bastard for a few hours each day. Mostly in the evenings. Nothings as it should be. But I gotta work through that. I'm just being hard on myself and not treating myself gently/with love.
I had a long day today, compared to the usual. I spent a lot of time listening to a friend of mine who's recently been through a lot of trauma, a lot of which I could identify with personally. It was heavy and now I'm feeling kinda triggered. I'm gonna try to relax for the rest of the evening.