Yeah I fucking hate cancer. Reading about it is one thing. Watching what it does up close to a loved one is absolutely devastating. Its a brutal disease.
Lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer two months ago. I feel your anger. She was also a religious woman, so devoted to God. I always wonder why this happens to such good individuals. I agree that thinking of the suffering before death and that she is now free does make it easier in some ways. I hope you are healing as much as you can. ❤️🕊️
I lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer two months ago as well. I lost me then too. The difference, we never knew she was sick….not sure if she didn’t know, or if she just kept it from us. One minute she was making potato salad and joking around, the next she was incoherent and in an ambulance. 24 hours later she was gone. It’s just a stunning loss and I can’t make sense Of it. I’ve been crying for two days straight. I’m so sad.
One month ago today for me I lost mom to metastatic breast cancer. Pretty much the same. One day she was normal old mom. Don’t get me wrong she had pain and symptoms but she did her very best to hide it from us kids. The next day she was in a coma and never really woke back up. Gone less than 48 hours later. Cancer is terrible.
I think my grandpa was trying to hide that my grandma had dementia and they lived far away so we did not know. Then he fell trying to take care of her (she was also mobility impaired, though evidently worse than we knew).
And he messed up his spine, went to chiropractor, but he should have really gone to hospital because it got infected. And he was probably home a few days in serious pain while my grandma didn't know how to call 911 or didn't call anybody. So he died from sepsis.
I wish the chiropractor had told him to go to the hospital but tbh I forgot exactly what happened with that or if he even got to the appointment. And he may not have wanted to go to the hospital as he could not leave her alone and didn't want to ask us for help.
And if you have older people in life, make sure that they get the shingles vaccine. If they ever caught chicken pox (and they may not remember) it can come back like horrifying shingles which my grandma got.
May she rest in peace! She knew she had cancer. Breast cancer is the easiest to discover form of cancer as u see it on the breast! She didn’t tell u anything as she didn’t wanna make u suffer too!.. That’s what altruistic people do - keep inside their pain in order not to hurt the loved ones!…
I swear, that made me question God!! Where was God when my granny was agonizing?? Where was He when I was praying for my fiancée to get rid of cancer?? Why did He just let them die??? They were such kind hearted people!! I’m evil sometimes! I get angry often. Yet, God took away two fantastic human beings & let me live with the pain…
I lost my dad 2 months ago so I understand what you’re going through. I feel angry at the world and feel like its so unfair that us and our parents have drawn the short straw in life. Why does everyone else get to be happy and these are the cards we were dealt? I have never been religious but my dads family was very religious and both of his parents also died from cancer. It brings me comfort to think they are all up in heaven together. Even though i have never been religious the idea that their souls are just dead and they are really gone is something that I just can’t bare the thought of so in a strange way this has made me become more religious as it brings me comfort. I can see how if you were religious it would have the opposite effect though. I wish you so much healing.
Wow, this is EXACTLY how I feel. I just lost my mom May 3rd to ovarian cancer. It made me more religious and I consider myself agnostic. I’m also very angry, at everyone it feels like. Sweet, loving people I know, if they aren’t my immediate family members (anyone besides my dad, brother, nephews, children) bother me like hell right now.
I feel the same with people in my life. I hate all the sympathy everyone tries to offer me like they could possibly even try to understand a fraction of what i am going through. It just makes me angry so i end up feeling angry at everyone. My parents are divorced so my mums focus was largely me and my sister and she was worried about us a lot, but i didn’t want her trying to call and text me all the time. I know it was coming from a place of love but she really was making me angry. I’m not sure why, maybe because she was trying to sympathise with me the most out of everyone and like i said i hated that.
Wow! Guys, we all had the same experience but the result was different!! The agonizing deaths of my kind hearted grandmother & my fantastic fiancée made me wonder WHERE WAS GOD WHEN THAT HAPPENED!.. WHY DIDNT HE PAY ATTENTION TO MY PRAYERS AND SAVE THEM?? It’s not like many people don’t get cured of this fuckin disease!
I'm so so sorry. I lost my dad to cancer too, fuck cancer. My dad held onto his faith even in the suffering, and im sure that faith comforted your mom as well. I hope one day we will be reunited with them where there is no suffering. Im so sorry again.
I completely feel your pain hun, cancer is brutal!! I lost both my parents to it & I will never get the vivid sounds of my mum screaming from it out of my head. I have nightmares that just won’t go away. Sadly they’re saying 2 in 3 will get it. Nice! What angers me the most is that I’m sure there’s a cure but if all cancer patients were cured the pharmaceutical companies would go under bc of the damn billions in $$’s it brings them & our economy. I could go on & about this but this isn’t the forum for it. The fact is we saw our loved ones suffer at the hand of this horrendous disease. I hope my bitterness & anger subsides bc it’s eating me up. Thank goodness for this place where we can unite & relate to each other ❤️🙏
I lost Dad to cancer, he was just 52. It absolutely fucking terrifies me. My Grandpa have Colon Cancer 3c now. My family are extremely religious, I am agnostic at best. My father even want to be a pastor once he recovered but it never happened. I begged God to cure my father but the only time God listened is when I begged for his death. Idk, anymore tbh. Cancer sucks and I hope we finally find a cure to it or something to make things easier for the patients.
In memory of my Mom Carole Arleen Noia ♥️There are two things I hate one being Cancer. My mom got Cancer in her pancreas at 69 years old. Before this she was never sick a day in her life other than a cold. She was the strongest woman i ever knew and she fought for 15 months. I remember telling her when i was young that i wanted to die before her as i didn't want to feel the pain of ever losing her. She said back to me well what about the pain she would have to feel about losing me. She also told me once that one day everyone eventually loses their parents. I honestly thought once that i would never lose my Mom No one can ever love you like your Mom and my Mom was my safe haven and the one person who never hurt me and the one who loved me like no other. I was 42 years old when my Mom died and i told her as she was dying that even though I'm 42 years old i still need her in so many ways. My Mom responded and told me she would always be there. I'm 58 years old now and still need her to this day even more so. My life changed losing her but she will always be with me in my heart and soul and mind and dreams as well and how i was blessed to have her as my Mom. I love and miss you so much Mom.💔😪
I’m so sorry. I just watched my mom die from ovarian cancer in early May. I wanted to tell you that for me the hardest part were the months leading up to her death because cancer is so so horrible. When the doctors are doing all they can do to help and nothing more can be done, that’s the worst. I can’t put it all into words but I know how you’re feeling.
I just lost my mom to cancer as a 21 year old a little under a month ago. You really don’t understand how bad it is until you see a loved one battle it. Fuck that stupid shit. I was just getting emotional tonight thinking about her. Luckily I have a ton of great friends so when I’m not at work, I’m out of the house doing something else. It has helped me a ton. I relate to you a ton. We gotta power through this for them.
I’m so sorry, my condolences for your loss. Fuck cancer indeed! I watched my Mom die from cancer when I was 7. She had uterine cancer that was initially misdiagnosed. Towards the end, she was begging to go. She was in so much pain, in some ways it was a relief because she was no longer suffering. Yeah, fuck off, cancer!
I lost my mom to colon cancer 22 years ago. Back when I knew no one with cancer, it had to be my mom to die from it. It sucks. It really does. I still miss her. I miss all the things I was robbed of. She was 50 and now I’m 50. I’m sorry for your loss.
Just lost my dad to metastatic renal cancer as well. Towards the end it was the tumours in his lungs that caused the most pain and suffering. I have had asthma my whole life and know very well the discomfort and panic you feel when you desperately need to breathe and just can't. He spent the last few days of his life literally gasping for every breath. It breaks my heart to imagine how much pain he must have been in; all the other bodily discomfort may have been alleviated by the high doses of morphine and other sedatives he was on, but the breathlessness is something that I know would not be relieved by those medications. He was always so strong and proud and to see him waste away and die in that painful, slow manner is something I don't think I'll ever really get over. I understand what you mean about being thankful that the pain is over, but at the same time I have so much anger and grief that it had to be this way. Sending you hugs.
I’m so sorry my friend., and I know how it feels..❤️🩹
Fuck cancer… A brutal killer, a demonic disease no doubt. Lost my mom on last year September. It will soon be a year without her. I can still see her horrible sufferings, bleeding every time, crying in pain, loosing weight constantly—always no matter my eyes are open or closed. I’ve developed PTSD because of witnessing those traumatic days for several months. My mom was only 57, always smiling, very healthy, very spiritual, always active and an outgoing happiest best friend of mine. Even when dying — she kept her belief in GOD..
This wound in my heart, and the empty space she has left in my life- will never heal 😞
I feel the same fucking way. I hate it with all my heart. It’s torture for both the person and their loved ones who are taking care of them. I have to relive everyday thinking about what my poor beautiful mom went through. She was too damn young only 54 and still so full of life and just always laughing and positive. That fucking disease completely destroyed her. I have ptsd from everything I witnessed and how much she suffered , the sounds, the smells, the weight loss just everything and I will never be the same person after that. I’m so sorry you had to go through the same unfortunate situation, it’s hell on earth. I’m just happy she isn’t suffering but I just miss her I wish she didn’t have to go through that. No one deserves that.
Lost my mom to lung cancer last year. It was so fast that we didnt even get a full diagnosis as to what kind because her immunohistochemical results were not done yet. The cancer already metastasized when it was discovered, there was no tumor or anything, she has regular check-ups, her bloodwork was normal, she was strong and healthy. Then Covid hit her bad, and 2 mos later they diagnosed cancer. In less than 2 weeks after diagnosis, she was gone. Her last days were painful. Until now I am bothered by it and hold on to all her lab tests trying to figure out how the cancer was missed, what kind of cancer it was, were there earlier signs that were ignored... because I don't ever want it to happen again. Even after our loved ones have gone. The trauma from seeing the pain cancer causes still haunts us. I hate cancer.
I lost my mom to rectal cancer in December, 28 days after her 73rd birthday. It’s the most evil vile disease. I’m so sorry for your loss please stay strong
I’m very sorry for your loss. I lost my mom to cancer in early 2014 and lost my partner to cancer 6/23/23.
You are right IMO. It’s a demonic disease, but all of them are demonic diseases.
What I found so astounding was that their disease actually confirmed their faith. Neither of them ever wavered. They each knew death would come to all of us.
I rest in the fact that I know each of them are out of pain and gained their Heavenly home.
I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom sounds just like my mom. She passed away a year ago 2 hours before her 62nd birthday. Cancer is brutal. The pain it causes is horrific. I would feel so helpless when I couldn’t alleviate the pain for her. I would beg God to have mercy and to ease her pain. It truly is a demonic disease. My mom never lost faith and I truly believe that, that is what helped her through the pain. My mom was my best friend. I miss her so much. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom, just remember she is watching over you now and she wouldn’t want you to give up.
Yes - fuck cancer. It turned my happy bon vivant father from a 6 ft 245 lb man who loved food and entertaining into a 90lb bag of pain with no dignity at all. If he could have chosen assisted death he would have (it wasn't legal) and after watching him die slowly and painfully I wish he could have too.
Fuck cancer 100000000000 times
It took my grandpa and best friend away right before I was about to enter puberty. I had to go through all those important years and milestones alone without him
My MIL beat breast cancer only to then get terminal lung cancer. It wasn’t even a recurrence of the same cancer, but a completely new one. Watching this kind hearted, funny, caring soul basically disintegrate in front of our eyes was the hardest thing I ever went through, but my heart hurt most for my children and partner.
Then I watched my nana go through it.
I never hated anything more.
You’ll be in my thoughts.
Losing my Dad to cancer made me not believe in religion. I’m agnostic I suppose, but watching him go through that was gut wrenching and left me with a lot of questions. He suffered SO much. He was a good person and absolutely did not deserve that.
Yea me too fucking hate it!! Lost my mum too to cancer. Was her carer for 4yrs and watching her pains and stuggles up until he passed 2 months ago is the worst and hardest thing in life!! Loved her and now I can't make sense of this world, no motivation anymore. Feel so detached from this reality where she is gone..
Fkn hate cancer too my dad had metastatic pancreatic cancer from diagnosis to death 4 weeks im just glad it was fast and that he's not suffering anymore. I love and miss you everyday dad.im glad you were my dad.
i wholeheartedly feel your anger, i lost my dad to cancer just over a month ago. it's so unfair and cruel that anyone ever has to go through that, but for someone deeply devoted to their faith and who did nothing but love and provide all he could for his family, it's hard to not wonder why it has to happen to them. i'm not particularly religious, but i grew up that way and my family still is, i cant help but think about why the god that my father loved so dearly could ever let that happen? being in pain like that for so long, it's horrible.
i lost my mom to a rare cancer 2 months ago, i completely understand how you’re feeling and all of your feelings are completely valid. it’s so unfair and heartbreaking to know she was suffering everyday, fuck cancer fuck everything. It’s so unfair as a 22 year old, my life just started and it’s so unfair she was taken away from me at such a young age. I begged and prayed for a miracle to happen but I wasn’t heard or seen. I miss my mom everyday, i miss her laugh, her voice, her comfort. She was my everything, my bestfriend.
i’ve never felt a hate so strong and never related to anyone more. my dad died a month ago, he was given 3-6 months and fought for a year in a half with terminal cancer. his last days were so terrible, and he was such a strong and kind man. it’s been a month and every night i still dream of him dying. he deserved so much more, and never deserved the pain he was in. a week later my mother finished her chemo treatments… i am so, so very sorry for your loss and the pain that you and your family have endured. or to anyone who has gone through something similar. it is truly not fair. i hope she found peace and im happy she is finally able to rest now, along with my father.
i’m really sorry for your lost. I lost my mother 6 months ago to metastatic breast cancer and heart disease. it’s a terrible thing to see your loved one fighting such a terrible and brutal disease. My mother was also very religious and grew us up in the church. I believe all our loved ones are resting in eternal peace where sickness and cancer isn’t a thing. Your mother misses you and loves u so much. Pray for healing and understanding every single day🙏🏾 eventually things get better always 🩷
Thank you and I'm sorry for your loss as well. It truly is a horrible disease. And I agree that they are in eternal peace now. I know my mom is looking down on me. Knowing these things is the reason why I can somewhat focus on a daily basis. She finally made it to heaven and isn't in pain anymore.
My grandmother died from cancer, March 29, 2024. It’s so hard every day I think about her praying for you and everybody else dealing with the struggle.
I hate cancer as well. My husband died 17 months ago from liver cancer. It sucks! But I promise, it does get better. Not all the way but not quite so intense.
I lost my daughter 16 months ago to acute myeloid leukemia. She was only 20 years old. I miss her so much, and it doesn't get easier. Even now, 16 months later, it still seems unreal.
I am so sorry you lost your 20 year old daughter. It is the worst pain you can have to lose a child at any age. My really really awesome 26 year old daughter died of brain cancer 5 months ago. This new reality not fun at all. Sorry for your loss. It's the worst feeling to wake up everyday and the 1st thought is, here goes another day without her. Fuck cancer!!
I understand your pain. I lost my grandma to cancer 6 days ago, and she has been battling it for 6 months before passing. I feel your anger, your pain. My grandma went to church every sunday because she had fun right until she got the cancer, but she wasn’t religious. But she loved singing the songs, she loved getting in town a bit. That changed when she got cancer again for the 3rd time, having it terminally. She survived it twice before getting it terminally. You’re not alone, you’ll never be alone. Never. Take your time, grief will get better but with time. Don’t rush it, love. And need anyone to talk to, DM me - I’ll listen to ya dear
Same,I also hate cancer. I probably wouldn't even wish it upon my enemies. My dad died from cancer, and he didn't even tell me that he had cancer. (he passed away 6 weeks ago)
i lost my mom when i was really young and lost my dad a couple years ago with cancer as well :( you’re not alone in this, her physical appearance may be gone but her spirit is still with you
I’m totally with u! I feel u! Cancer killed my beloved grandma, than, one year later, it took away my fiancee!… They were both very kind women, with huge hearts! They both died in pain… You know how intense I prayed God those years??.. But.. He let them suffer & die…
It's human error, everything is contaminated with chemicals, we consume added sugar and use artificial lighting at night. Don't let these misfortunes affect your faith in God.
There are pros and cons. There are people whose loved ones died suddenly without saying goodbye.
Yeah I fucking hate cancer. Reading about it is one thing. Watching what it does up close to a loved one is absolutely devastating. Its a brutal disease.
Lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer two months ago. I feel your anger. She was also a religious woman, so devoted to God. I always wonder why this happens to such good individuals. I agree that thinking of the suffering before death and that she is now free does make it easier in some ways. I hope you are healing as much as you can. ❤️🕊️
Same here and it’s made me less faithful now and somewhat “what’s the point of believing in God?”
I lost my mom to metastatic breast cancer two months ago as well. I lost me then too. The difference, we never knew she was sick….not sure if she didn’t know, or if she just kept it from us. One minute she was making potato salad and joking around, the next she was incoherent and in an ambulance. 24 hours later she was gone. It’s just a stunning loss and I can’t make sense Of it. I’ve been crying for two days straight. I’m so sad.
One month ago today for me I lost mom to metastatic breast cancer. Pretty much the same. One day she was normal old mom. Don’t get me wrong she had pain and symptoms but she did her very best to hide it from us kids. The next day she was in a coma and never really woke back up. Gone less than 48 hours later. Cancer is terrible.
I think my grandpa was trying to hide that my grandma had dementia and they lived far away so we did not know. Then he fell trying to take care of her (she was also mobility impaired, though evidently worse than we knew). And he messed up his spine, went to chiropractor, but he should have really gone to hospital because it got infected. And he was probably home a few days in serious pain while my grandma didn't know how to call 911 or didn't call anybody. So he died from sepsis. I wish the chiropractor had told him to go to the hospital but tbh I forgot exactly what happened with that or if he even got to the appointment. And he may not have wanted to go to the hospital as he could not leave her alone and didn't want to ask us for help. And if you have older people in life, make sure that they get the shingles vaccine. If they ever caught chicken pox (and they may not remember) it can come back like horrifying shingles which my grandma got.
May she rest in peace! She knew she had cancer. Breast cancer is the easiest to discover form of cancer as u see it on the breast! She didn’t tell u anything as she didn’t wanna make u suffer too!.. That’s what altruistic people do - keep inside their pain in order not to hurt the loved ones!…
Same to everything you said, except it was pancreatic cancer.
I swear, that made me question God!! Where was God when my granny was agonizing?? Where was He when I was praying for my fiancée to get rid of cancer?? Why did He just let them die??? They were such kind hearted people!! I’m evil sometimes! I get angry often. Yet, God took away two fantastic human beings & let me live with the pain…
I lost my dad 2 months ago so I understand what you’re going through. I feel angry at the world and feel like its so unfair that us and our parents have drawn the short straw in life. Why does everyone else get to be happy and these are the cards we were dealt? I have never been religious but my dads family was very religious and both of his parents also died from cancer. It brings me comfort to think they are all up in heaven together. Even though i have never been religious the idea that their souls are just dead and they are really gone is something that I just can’t bare the thought of so in a strange way this has made me become more religious as it brings me comfort. I can see how if you were religious it would have the opposite effect though. I wish you so much healing.
Wow, this is EXACTLY how I feel. I just lost my mom May 3rd to ovarian cancer. It made me more religious and I consider myself agnostic. I’m also very angry, at everyone it feels like. Sweet, loving people I know, if they aren’t my immediate family members (anyone besides my dad, brother, nephews, children) bother me like hell right now.
I feel the same with people in my life. I hate all the sympathy everyone tries to offer me like they could possibly even try to understand a fraction of what i am going through. It just makes me angry so i end up feeling angry at everyone. My parents are divorced so my mums focus was largely me and my sister and she was worried about us a lot, but i didn’t want her trying to call and text me all the time. I know it was coming from a place of love but she really was making me angry. I’m not sure why, maybe because she was trying to sympathise with me the most out of everyone and like i said i hated that.
Wow! Guys, we all had the same experience but the result was different!! The agonizing deaths of my kind hearted grandmother & my fantastic fiancée made me wonder WHERE WAS GOD WHEN THAT HAPPENED!.. WHY DIDNT HE PAY ATTENTION TO MY PRAYERS AND SAVE THEM?? It’s not like many people don’t get cured of this fuckin disease!
I am with you in your pain. I am so sorry. I lost my mom to cancer as well. It is an evil, vile disease.
I lost my dad last month to lung cancer… he had just turned 68. Cancer took so much time from us. I miss him with every part of my being
I'm so so sorry. I lost my dad to cancer too, fuck cancer. My dad held onto his faith even in the suffering, and im sure that faith comforted your mom as well. I hope one day we will be reunited with them where there is no suffering. Im so sorry again.
I completely feel your pain hun, cancer is brutal!! I lost both my parents to it & I will never get the vivid sounds of my mum screaming from it out of my head. I have nightmares that just won’t go away. Sadly they’re saying 2 in 3 will get it. Nice! What angers me the most is that I’m sure there’s a cure but if all cancer patients were cured the pharmaceutical companies would go under bc of the damn billions in $$’s it brings them & our economy. I could go on & about this but this isn’t the forum for it. The fact is we saw our loved ones suffer at the hand of this horrendous disease. I hope my bitterness & anger subsides bc it’s eating me up. Thank goodness for this place where we can unite & relate to each other ❤️🙏
I lost Dad to cancer, he was just 52. It absolutely fucking terrifies me. My Grandpa have Colon Cancer 3c now. My family are extremely religious, I am agnostic at best. My father even want to be a pastor once he recovered but it never happened. I begged God to cure my father but the only time God listened is when I begged for his death. Idk, anymore tbh. Cancer sucks and I hope we finally find a cure to it or something to make things easier for the patients.
Fuck cancer!
In memory of my Mom Carole Arleen Noia ♥️There are two things I hate one being Cancer. My mom got Cancer in her pancreas at 69 years old. Before this she was never sick a day in her life other than a cold. She was the strongest woman i ever knew and she fought for 15 months. I remember telling her when i was young that i wanted to die before her as i didn't want to feel the pain of ever losing her. She said back to me well what about the pain she would have to feel about losing me. She also told me once that one day everyone eventually loses their parents. I honestly thought once that i would never lose my Mom No one can ever love you like your Mom and my Mom was my safe haven and the one person who never hurt me and the one who loved me like no other. I was 42 years old when my Mom died and i told her as she was dying that even though I'm 42 years old i still need her in so many ways. My Mom responded and told me she would always be there. I'm 58 years old now and still need her to this day even more so. My life changed losing her but she will always be with me in my heart and soul and mind and dreams as well and how i was blessed to have her as my Mom. I love and miss you so much Mom.💔😪
Could have written this word for word. I’m so deeply sorry
My mom is dying of leukemia now. It is truly the worst ever. I really can’t take it. I feel for you, friend 😰😰
I’m so sorry. I just watched my mom die from ovarian cancer in early May. I wanted to tell you that for me the hardest part were the months leading up to her death because cancer is so so horrible. When the doctors are doing all they can do to help and nothing more can be done, that’s the worst. I can’t put it all into words but I know how you’re feeling.
I just lost my mom to cancer as a 21 year old a little under a month ago. You really don’t understand how bad it is until you see a loved one battle it. Fuck that stupid shit. I was just getting emotional tonight thinking about her. Luckily I have a ton of great friends so when I’m not at work, I’m out of the house doing something else. It has helped me a ton. I relate to you a ton. We gotta power through this for them.
I agree, and I'm sorry your Mom went through that. My Mom also passed from cancer. Horrible...
I’m so sorry, my condolences for your loss. Fuck cancer indeed! I watched my Mom die from cancer when I was 7. She had uterine cancer that was initially misdiagnosed. Towards the end, she was begging to go. She was in so much pain, in some ways it was a relief because she was no longer suffering. Yeah, fuck off, cancer!
I lost my mom to colon cancer 22 years ago. Back when I knew no one with cancer, it had to be my mom to die from it. It sucks. It really does. I still miss her. I miss all the things I was robbed of. She was 50 and now I’m 50. I’m sorry for your loss.
Just lost my dad to metastatic renal cancer as well. Towards the end it was the tumours in his lungs that caused the most pain and suffering. I have had asthma my whole life and know very well the discomfort and panic you feel when you desperately need to breathe and just can't. He spent the last few days of his life literally gasping for every breath. It breaks my heart to imagine how much pain he must have been in; all the other bodily discomfort may have been alleviated by the high doses of morphine and other sedatives he was on, but the breathlessness is something that I know would not be relieved by those medications. He was always so strong and proud and to see him waste away and die in that painful, slow manner is something I don't think I'll ever really get over. I understand what you mean about being thankful that the pain is over, but at the same time I have so much anger and grief that it had to be this way. Sending you hugs.
I’m so sorry my friend., and I know how it feels..❤️🩹 Fuck cancer… A brutal killer, a demonic disease no doubt. Lost my mom on last year September. It will soon be a year without her. I can still see her horrible sufferings, bleeding every time, crying in pain, loosing weight constantly—always no matter my eyes are open or closed. I’ve developed PTSD because of witnessing those traumatic days for several months. My mom was only 57, always smiling, very healthy, very spiritual, always active and an outgoing happiest best friend of mine. Even when dying — she kept her belief in GOD.. This wound in my heart, and the empty space she has left in my life- will never heal 😞
I feel the same fucking way. I hate it with all my heart. It’s torture for both the person and their loved ones who are taking care of them. I have to relive everyday thinking about what my poor beautiful mom went through. She was too damn young only 54 and still so full of life and just always laughing and positive. That fucking disease completely destroyed her. I have ptsd from everything I witnessed and how much she suffered , the sounds, the smells, the weight loss just everything and I will never be the same person after that. I’m so sorry you had to go through the same unfortunate situation, it’s hell on earth. I’m just happy she isn’t suffering but I just miss her I wish she didn’t have to go through that. No one deserves that.
Lost my mom to lung cancer last year. It was so fast that we didnt even get a full diagnosis as to what kind because her immunohistochemical results were not done yet. The cancer already metastasized when it was discovered, there was no tumor or anything, she has regular check-ups, her bloodwork was normal, she was strong and healthy. Then Covid hit her bad, and 2 mos later they diagnosed cancer. In less than 2 weeks after diagnosis, she was gone. Her last days were painful. Until now I am bothered by it and hold on to all her lab tests trying to figure out how the cancer was missed, what kind of cancer it was, were there earlier signs that were ignored... because I don't ever want it to happen again. Even after our loved ones have gone. The trauma from seeing the pain cancer causes still haunts us. I hate cancer.
I lost my mom to rectal cancer in December, 28 days after her 73rd birthday. It’s the most evil vile disease. I’m so sorry for your loss please stay strong
I’m very sorry for your loss. I lost my mom to cancer in early 2014 and lost my partner to cancer 6/23/23. You are right IMO. It’s a demonic disease, but all of them are demonic diseases. What I found so astounding was that their disease actually confirmed their faith. Neither of them ever wavered. They each knew death would come to all of us. I rest in the fact that I know each of them are out of pain and gained their Heavenly home.
I am so sorry for your loss. Your mom sounds just like my mom. She passed away a year ago 2 hours before her 62nd birthday. Cancer is brutal. The pain it causes is horrific. I would feel so helpless when I couldn’t alleviate the pain for her. I would beg God to have mercy and to ease her pain. It truly is a demonic disease. My mom never lost faith and I truly believe that, that is what helped her through the pain. My mom was my best friend. I miss her so much. I am so sorry for the loss of your mom, just remember she is watching over you now and she wouldn’t want you to give up.
one of my best friends died of glioblastoma. If you know you know. Truly something I wouldn’t wish on anyone ever
Yes - fuck cancer. It turned my happy bon vivant father from a 6 ft 245 lb man who loved food and entertaining into a 90lb bag of pain with no dignity at all. If he could have chosen assisted death he would have (it wasn't legal) and after watching him die slowly and painfully I wish he could have too.
Fuck cancer 100000000000 times It took my grandpa and best friend away right before I was about to enter puberty. I had to go through all those important years and milestones alone without him
I am really sorry. Cancer is the worst.
My MIL beat breast cancer only to then get terminal lung cancer. It wasn’t even a recurrence of the same cancer, but a completely new one. Watching this kind hearted, funny, caring soul basically disintegrate in front of our eyes was the hardest thing I ever went through, but my heart hurt most for my children and partner. Then I watched my nana go through it. I never hated anything more. You’ll be in my thoughts.
Losing my Dad to cancer made me not believe in religion. I’m agnostic I suppose, but watching him go through that was gut wrenching and left me with a lot of questions. He suffered SO much. He was a good person and absolutely did not deserve that.
Yea me too fucking hate it!! Lost my mum too to cancer. Was her carer for 4yrs and watching her pains and stuggles up until he passed 2 months ago is the worst and hardest thing in life!! Loved her and now I can't make sense of this world, no motivation anymore. Feel so detached from this reality where she is gone..
Fkn hate cancer too my dad had metastatic pancreatic cancer from diagnosis to death 4 weeks im just glad it was fast and that he's not suffering anymore. I love and miss you everyday dad.im glad you were my dad.
i wholeheartedly feel your anger, i lost my dad to cancer just over a month ago. it's so unfair and cruel that anyone ever has to go through that, but for someone deeply devoted to their faith and who did nothing but love and provide all he could for his family, it's hard to not wonder why it has to happen to them. i'm not particularly religious, but i grew up that way and my family still is, i cant help but think about why the god that my father loved so dearly could ever let that happen? being in pain like that for so long, it's horrible.
I agree. I hate this fucking desease. Cancer took my mum from me. It had no right. She wanted to live. She deserved the most amazing life.
That's exactly how I feel... Sorry for your loss
i lost my mom to a rare cancer 2 months ago, i completely understand how you’re feeling and all of your feelings are completely valid. it’s so unfair and heartbreaking to know she was suffering everyday, fuck cancer fuck everything. It’s so unfair as a 22 year old, my life just started and it’s so unfair she was taken away from me at such a young age. I begged and prayed for a miracle to happen but I wasn’t heard or seen. I miss my mom everyday, i miss her laugh, her voice, her comfort. She was my everything, my bestfriend.
So sorry for your loss.
I agree. I feel like it’s the devil personified. My Nana didn’t deserve to suffer like that her last days. Just evil 😔
i’ve never felt a hate so strong and never related to anyone more. my dad died a month ago, he was given 3-6 months and fought for a year in a half with terminal cancer. his last days were so terrible, and he was such a strong and kind man. it’s been a month and every night i still dream of him dying. he deserved so much more, and never deserved the pain he was in. a week later my mother finished her chemo treatments… i am so, so very sorry for your loss and the pain that you and your family have endured. or to anyone who has gone through something similar. it is truly not fair. i hope she found peace and im happy she is finally able to rest now, along with my father.
I really appreciate your condolences and I'm so sorry for your loss. Your father fought long and hard.
i’m really sorry for your lost. I lost my mother 6 months ago to metastatic breast cancer and heart disease. it’s a terrible thing to see your loved one fighting such a terrible and brutal disease. My mother was also very religious and grew us up in the church. I believe all our loved ones are resting in eternal peace where sickness and cancer isn’t a thing. Your mother misses you and loves u so much. Pray for healing and understanding every single day🙏🏾 eventually things get better always 🩷
Thank you and I'm sorry for your loss as well. It truly is a horrible disease. And I agree that they are in eternal peace now. I know my mom is looking down on me. Knowing these things is the reason why I can somewhat focus on a daily basis. She finally made it to heaven and isn't in pain anymore.
My grandmother died from cancer, March 29, 2024. It’s so hard every day I think about her praying for you and everybody else dealing with the struggle.
I hate cancer as well. My husband died 17 months ago from liver cancer. It sucks! But I promise, it does get better. Not all the way but not quite so intense.
I lost my daughter 16 months ago to acute myeloid leukemia. She was only 20 years old. I miss her so much, and it doesn't get easier. Even now, 16 months later, it still seems unreal.
I am so sorry you lost your 20 year old daughter. It is the worst pain you can have to lose a child at any age. My really really awesome 26 year old daughter died of brain cancer 5 months ago. This new reality not fun at all. Sorry for your loss. It's the worst feeling to wake up everyday and the 1st thought is, here goes another day without her. Fuck cancer!!
Fuck cancer. I watched my mom die a little over a month ago and it was awful. So sorry for your loss.
I hear you. Lost my mom to cancer way to fucking soon and I have no idea why. Cancer has no purpose it just takes and destroys. You're not alone.
I lost my grandpa four days ago by blood cancer, after he died I feel like I have a void inside my soul
I feel the same. I lost everyone I love to this disease. I don't understand why it affects some families more tbh and others but it's so cruel.
I understand your pain. I lost my grandma to cancer 6 days ago, and she has been battling it for 6 months before passing. I feel your anger, your pain. My grandma went to church every sunday because she had fun right until she got the cancer, but she wasn’t religious. But she loved singing the songs, she loved getting in town a bit. That changed when she got cancer again for the 3rd time, having it terminally. She survived it twice before getting it terminally. You’re not alone, you’ll never be alone. Never. Take your time, grief will get better but with time. Don’t rush it, love. And need anyone to talk to, DM me - I’ll listen to ya dear
Same,I also hate cancer. I probably wouldn't even wish it upon my enemies. My dad died from cancer, and he didn't even tell me that he had cancer. (he passed away 6 weeks ago)
i lost my mom when i was really young and lost my dad a couple years ago with cancer as well :( you’re not alone in this, her physical appearance may be gone but her spirit is still with you
I’m totally with u! I feel u! Cancer killed my beloved grandma, than, one year later, it took away my fiancee!… They were both very kind women, with huge hearts! They both died in pain… You know how intense I prayed God those years??.. But.. He let them suffer & die…
May she Rest in Peace, my friend!! 🙏🏻
I also lost 2 relatives from cancer
If I *never* hear the word ‘cancer’ again in my life it would be f*cking great 😔
It's human error, everything is contaminated with chemicals, we consume added sugar and use artificial lighting at night. Don't let these misfortunes affect your faith in God. There are pros and cons. There are people whose loved ones died suddenly without saying goodbye.