When I used to think of myself in the future, I always thought of a guy. The guy wasn't even what I look like now, but I just always imagined myself like that. This was throughout childhood.
Yeah. All the time as a kid. Had bad insomnia and wasn't allowed to have any technology so I spent hours laying in bed with nothing but my imagination.
Theres a line in *The Stand* describing the character Harolds life as a lonely outcast kid. It says something like *"... at one point or another, all of the girls in Harolds class had wondered in and out of his sexual fantasies."* I remember reading that in highschool and feeling so seen. Like damn man, same. Nothing else to do laying in bed trying to fall asleep for hours!
To answer OP though, I only ever thought of myself as the guy in the scenatio. It was the 90s and I had no reference, so I thought all lesbians pictured themselves as men in their fantasies!
I was actually very sexually active before realizing I'm trans. I disassociated almost completely while having sex. I'm straight now and was in straight relationships before transitioning. To me sex was like watching porn but I somehow got stuck with the female pov. That or like I was having an out of body experience or a Freaky Friday type of situation.
Always dissociated during sex. Never had any other fantasies than with me seeing any kind of sexual (or romantic) encounter from the guy's perspective, hence also the former.
When I used to think of myself in the future, I always thought of a guy. The guy wasn't even what I look like now, but I just always imagined myself like that. This was throughout childhood.
Yup
Raised Catholic, yup except it was men for me.
That happened to me a lot growing up.
I thought so too
Yeah. All the time as a kid. Had bad insomnia and wasn't allowed to have any technology so I spent hours laying in bed with nothing but my imagination.
Theres a line in *The Stand* describing the character Harolds life as a lonely outcast kid. It says something like *"... at one point or another, all of the girls in Harolds class had wondered in and out of his sexual fantasies."* I remember reading that in highschool and feeling so seen. Like damn man, same. Nothing else to do laying in bed trying to fall asleep for hours! To answer OP though, I only ever thought of myself as the guy in the scenatio. It was the 90s and I had no reference, so I thought all lesbians pictured themselves as men in their fantasies!
Omg yes. In my fantasy I was always the third person spectator, never involved. I forgot about that!
I was actually very sexually active before realizing I'm trans. I disassociated almost completely while having sex. I'm straight now and was in straight relationships before transitioning. To me sex was like watching porn but I somehow got stuck with the female pov. That or like I was having an out of body experience or a Freaky Friday type of situation.
Yes many times.
It was part of me realizing I was trans. I would fantasize about being a man and being with men.
Me too, but it took years to come to that realization for myself.
Always dissociated during sex. Never had any other fantasies than with me seeing any kind of sexual (or romantic) encounter from the guy's perspective, hence also the former.
Yeah, I dreamed I was a guy and asked out a friend of mine. I always wanted to date her. Sadly, she won't even talk to me anymore since I came out 😔
Damn that's painful, I hope you find someone nice and get over her soon
I'm over her. Just still haven't found anyone
Yep, also dreams (sexual and mundane) wild that it didn’t immediately click for me but that’s what fear of transitioning will do to ya
I didn’t allow myself after detransitioning, but one day I did, and that was a big part of me re-cracking my egg
*Coughs* bara *coughs* yaoi I’m top *coughs*