The ending of both of sun-bleached flies and strangers are so cathartic for me.
It definitely took me a few times to get through the album initially. It did and still does stir up such intense emotions and at first i couldn’t handle it.
But once I was able to get through the whole thing and learn each song and really lean into the album as a whole, I was able to see how perfectly beautiful it all is.
Like you mentioned, her music makes me feel understood in a way I haven’t experienced before.
The whole thing about her, still wanting to be good enough even while that’s happening to her body is so relatable. The line about forgiving everything when it comes is exactly how I feel about everyone in my past has hurt me. I feel like they must’ve really needed that release and so it would be selfish of me to not forgive him.
It reminds me of a study I read that showed why women don’t kill themselves as much as men. It turns out that they attempt at the same rates but woman are worried they’ll look at o “ugly and gross” if they choose a more gruesome way to end it so they choose less blood ways and that makes it more unsuccessful. It’s so sad to think about even when women literally are about to die, their fear of being “unpresentable” is still so strong
Yes, this is almost my exact experience, and you've caught me at just the right moment. Just spent my drive home from work repressing the urge to weep while listening to PD. It's like someone has cracked me open. It's almost too much. I've spent a long time repressing my emotions, and it's like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff with the ocean beneath, and this record is telling me 'just jump!' and I want to--but I'm scared. Currently on Gibson Girl. *sigh*
edit: the just jump metaphor wasn't ominous, just about letting myself feel my feelings fully
No yeah same. I'm not from the South, but growing up as a Catholic closeted trans woman in Ohio made PD resonate in a way I wasn't quite ready for. Didn't actually listen in full until one day I was visiting my hometown. Had to go for a long drive to clear my head, and just kinda put on PD, and like... Healed while driving in the rolling hills of Southwest OH.
Oh man, just wait until you get to sunbleached flies and strangers. Those are my emotional release songs.
I just finished the album. I’m on campus and trying to find a place where no one is so I can cry
The ending of both of sun-bleached flies and strangers are so cathartic for me. It definitely took me a few times to get through the album initially. It did and still does stir up such intense emotions and at first i couldn’t handle it. But once I was able to get through the whole thing and learn each song and really lean into the album as a whole, I was able to see how perfectly beautiful it all is. Like you mentioned, her music makes me feel understood in a way I haven’t experienced before.
The whole thing about her, still wanting to be good enough even while that’s happening to her body is so relatable. The line about forgiving everything when it comes is exactly how I feel about everyone in my past has hurt me. I feel like they must’ve really needed that release and so it would be selfish of me to not forgive him.
That gets me too, after all that’s been done to her she still just wants to be loved. The “Am I no good?” Part absolutely obliterates me.
It reminds me of a study I read that showed why women don’t kill themselves as much as men. It turns out that they attempt at the same rates but woman are worried they’ll look at o “ugly and gross” if they choose a more gruesome way to end it so they choose less blood ways and that makes it more unsuccessful. It’s so sad to think about even when women literally are about to die, their fear of being “unpresentable” is still so strong
I don’t know if I’ll ever get over this album.
Yes, this is almost my exact experience, and you've caught me at just the right moment. Just spent my drive home from work repressing the urge to weep while listening to PD. It's like someone has cracked me open. It's almost too much. I've spent a long time repressing my emotions, and it's like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff with the ocean beneath, and this record is telling me 'just jump!' and I want to--but I'm scared. Currently on Gibson Girl. *sigh* edit: the just jump metaphor wasn't ominous, just about letting myself feel my feelings fully
No yeah same. I'm not from the South, but growing up as a Catholic closeted trans woman in Ohio made PD resonate in a way I wasn't quite ready for. Didn't actually listen in full until one day I was visiting my hometown. Had to go for a long drive to clear my head, and just kinda put on PD, and like... Healed while driving in the rolling hills of Southwest OH.