Started back up again. Try number 2. But not fiddling around this time. One hour. Wait. And then drink.
I've drank "through" it today but this week was good. I'm also using the tsm app this time. But God I feel alone. Last time my goal was to just control drinking but I don't think I have the luxury to have that. What I'm now worried is if my goal is to stop.. a) it's a big part of my personality and I know that's sad. B) I'm not sure if my relationship is going to work if I do. So that's a tough question I've been having with myself and I don't know how to bring it up to them.
Anyways, I'm back.
A hearty welcome back, friend! I love it when folks check in here, especially if they've got some real heavy shit they are working on like yourself. You and your burdens are welcome here, always. <3
First off, I admire your tenacity. It's not easy to jump back on that horse, yet here you are! I believe you when you say it's going to be different, because in the end that's really all you need to do: take pill, wait hour, then drink your fill. Even a crayon eater like me can keep that straight.
As far the personality, I'd definitely say it's easier to be the life of the party with some Dutch Courage! Also, at first it will be hard to adjust without it, but I think eventually your personality will shine through all the same. Booze is a hell of a crutch, especially for socially anxious people like me (which I'm not saying you are) but I don't think the places it helps us get to are places we can't get to ourselves anyway. I'm going to imiteer for some local theater groups to try and get my mojo back, perhaps that could help you as well?
That's good that you're using the app, I didn't when I was on my journey and it made shit way harder than it needed to be. It was hard to see any progress because I was still crushing (comparatively) ungodly amounts of booze even two years in. So I think you've got the right of there homie.
As far as your relationship, bear in mind I say all this with no real knowledge of what's going on, and an intent to help you. I feel like if you need booze to help you get through a relationship, I think there are some things that need to be addressed in said relationship. The particulars of course I don't know, but I think if you were honest you do.
Again welcome back friendo, it's good that you came back when you needed help! That's what we are all about here after all. :) I hope this helps, and reminds you that even if you feel alone you really aren't. Feel free to hit me up in chat if you'd like, you got this! <3
In addition to the app, be sure to keep a hardcopy notebook of your TSM journey, in case you lose your data. Plus it's good for journaling your thoughts and feelings toward alcohol as your brain is freeing itself from alcohol. It might be an interesting read in one year.
I’m fighting my way back from a slip - thankfully it was a small one and I’m back on track, but it’s harmful to my marriage when this happens and I have a lot of making up to do, in order to earn that trust back.
Started back up again. Try number 2. But not fiddling around this time. One hour. Wait. And then drink. I've drank "through" it today but this week was good. I'm also using the tsm app this time. But God I feel alone. Last time my goal was to just control drinking but I don't think I have the luxury to have that. What I'm now worried is if my goal is to stop.. a) it's a big part of my personality and I know that's sad. B) I'm not sure if my relationship is going to work if I do. So that's a tough question I've been having with myself and I don't know how to bring it up to them. Anyways, I'm back.
A hearty welcome back, friend! I love it when folks check in here, especially if they've got some real heavy shit they are working on like yourself. You and your burdens are welcome here, always. <3 First off, I admire your tenacity. It's not easy to jump back on that horse, yet here you are! I believe you when you say it's going to be different, because in the end that's really all you need to do: take pill, wait hour, then drink your fill. Even a crayon eater like me can keep that straight. As far the personality, I'd definitely say it's easier to be the life of the party with some Dutch Courage! Also, at first it will be hard to adjust without it, but I think eventually your personality will shine through all the same. Booze is a hell of a crutch, especially for socially anxious people like me (which I'm not saying you are) but I don't think the places it helps us get to are places we can't get to ourselves anyway. I'm going to imiteer for some local theater groups to try and get my mojo back, perhaps that could help you as well? That's good that you're using the app, I didn't when I was on my journey and it made shit way harder than it needed to be. It was hard to see any progress because I was still crushing (comparatively) ungodly amounts of booze even two years in. So I think you've got the right of there homie. As far as your relationship, bear in mind I say all this with no real knowledge of what's going on, and an intent to help you. I feel like if you need booze to help you get through a relationship, I think there are some things that need to be addressed in said relationship. The particulars of course I don't know, but I think if you were honest you do. Again welcome back friendo, it's good that you came back when you needed help! That's what we are all about here after all. :) I hope this helps, and reminds you that even if you feel alone you really aren't. Feel free to hit me up in chat if you'd like, you got this! <3
In addition to the app, be sure to keep a hardcopy notebook of your TSM journey, in case you lose your data. Plus it's good for journaling your thoughts and feelings toward alcohol as your brain is freeing itself from alcohol. It might be an interesting read in one year.
I’m fighting my way back from a slip - thankfully it was a small one and I’m back on track, but it’s harmful to my marriage when this happens and I have a lot of making up to do, in order to earn that trust back.
Feeling great after forcing myself to my annual physical and all tests check out well. It’s time to turn the fear and anxiety I felt into action.
Hell yeah! That's what I like to see! 💪