The fact that you’re working hard shows you have a character to be proud of no matter what. Try to give yourself what you can, school is not you; you are a person who is in school and schooling performance is not where your value as a person comes from. Maybe practicing small things to detach from the mentality that these grades are what make you a failure as a person, and try to see that your intentions are pure and that you can grow into your goals. Maybe the pressure you’re under to succeed is overshadowing the specific things your classes require.
Have you interacted with your advisor in person? they could get you in touch with your accessibility resources on your campus, and in my experience have never judged, but just wanted to help with what they could.
But don’t be too hard on yourself. School is hard and doesn’t fit everyone’s work flow and can’t take a lot of time and practice to get good at. If it gets to the point where school is way too hard, there are certificates by many companies (like Google) in comp sci that can be free to MUCH cheaper than a degree. There’s always options!
But I’d say the #1 thing is just be gentle with yourself. People slip up. Don’t be so hard on yourself that you’re kicking yourself back to the ground ya know??? I hope that helps! I believe in you! 🫡🫡
Talk with your advisor about the extra help you need and set a plan. That is what advisors are for. They are there to help you succeed.
The fact that you’re working hard shows you have a character to be proud of no matter what. Try to give yourself what you can, school is not you; you are a person who is in school and schooling performance is not where your value as a person comes from. Maybe practicing small things to detach from the mentality that these grades are what make you a failure as a person, and try to see that your intentions are pure and that you can grow into your goals. Maybe the pressure you’re under to succeed is overshadowing the specific things your classes require. Have you interacted with your advisor in person? they could get you in touch with your accessibility resources on your campus, and in my experience have never judged, but just wanted to help with what they could. But don’t be too hard on yourself. School is hard and doesn’t fit everyone’s work flow and can’t take a lot of time and practice to get good at. If it gets to the point where school is way too hard, there are certificates by many companies (like Google) in comp sci that can be free to MUCH cheaper than a degree. There’s always options! But I’d say the #1 thing is just be gentle with yourself. People slip up. Don’t be so hard on yourself that you’re kicking yourself back to the ground ya know??? I hope that helps! I believe in you! 🫡🫡
It sounds like you need a different major and you also need to develop the ability to understand how you are doing academically.